The happiest moments in my life are almost entirely centred around the three of you, and the two of us parents, together.
I mean, we're almost always together outside of work & school... so they're bound to be, right?
But a lot of the time the biggest smiles come when me and Dad do our little telepathic thing, communicating with our eyes, daring not to speak for fear this magical moment will end... watching you guys do something extraordinary or extra ordinary.
Autism, anxiety, probably ADHD... they've given us a gift, as your parents, one quite rare: gratitude for the small things. There's nothing that goes uncelebrated, and hasn't been since Cayden threw his first picture card in my direction 10 years ago.
A story. A game. A dance. A display of compassion. A meal out. A swim. A night of full sleep. A met target. A new sound. A call for help. A flush of the toilet. A baked cake. A carrot eaten. A hug. A giggle. A spat with your brother(s). A contextually-accurate swear.
All entirely ordinary. All pretty mundane. Yet joyous. Every single one. So imagine the intensity of pride and thankfulness we feel when one of the 'big' things happens - settling into school, talking, getting yourself ready and following instruction for the first time.
But nothing - nothing - brings me more joy than when I witness your love for each other.
When you read to your littlest brother. When you set up a sleepover and plan your future as YouTubers. When you tease your biggest brother and somehow get away with messing with his stuff - no one else on the planet would. When you look out for each other. When you think of gifts for them. When you tell me your two favourite years are 2012 and 2015, because that's when you got your brothers.
Those moments are glorious reminders of what a strong structure me and Dad started building, and why we keep going every day.
Of course we only created the frame, you guys are the ones to fill it in and make it beautiful. Together, you all light it up. It's so big and bright now I hope you'll be able to see it forever. Wherever life takes you.
To think we were so scared about having our first child, about introducing a second, about becoming a family with more children than parents!
I laugh because while it is sometimes so far from easy, that finding the joy is really tough, not once have those fears been validated. You all have your unique and special spot in this family and you are each so loved and cherished by not only me and Dad, but by your brothers too.